My ex got engaged.
This is the last axe that needed to fall to sever all attachment. It’s strange, because he has been in my
dreams lately, which I know signifies a release or letting go of
attachment. I must have felt this
coming, so I was already in a state of release when this news hit.
Some people might say, “It’s been six years, how are you
still not over this.” But that is the
thing with emotions and relationships, you don’t just “get over them.” Sometimes emotions coming flooding back
unexpectedly, and you need to process them, otherwise there is no release and
they will lie in the shadows waiting to strike at any time. There is no statute of limitations on how
long it take to process emotion. You
just have to let it run its course.
I read the news on Facebook last night and it struck
me. It took a while to process what I
was feeling. I went into shock. I felt numb and electric all at the same
time. My first response was to email my
therapist. I needed to be witnessed in
this. It was late and I knew she
wouldn’t receive it until the morning, but I needed to send out a white flag –
I need extra support and my therapist tends to be my first responder.
